Another year around the sun in search of
Anything to pacify the numbing belief
That irrespective of how our time was spent
Or what solace we were graced by friends
It all amounted to nothing in the end.
You’d always watch me as I’d ideate
Diazepam and dulling ache
Open eyed, I stare at the mirror and drive my teeth straight through my tongue
It’s so torpefying knowing that one day your life will be forgotten
In the spaces between my discomfort and grief
I had nothing to offer to help you to sleep
No question ever conjured up enough detail to reconstruct
The trust that you felt I had broken; shallow cuts for doubt to soak in.
Now I don’t think of you in apathy (You’d always watch me as I’d ideate)
Now I don’t think of you in apathy.
Now I don’t think of you in apathy (Diazepam and dulling ache)
I don’t think of you at all.
Open eyed, I stare at the mirror and drive my teeth straight through my tongue
It’s so torpefying knowing that one day your life will be forgotten
And I can’t help but feel like I’m to blame,
But if it hurt that much then why did you stay?
In the spaces between my discomfort and grief, I had nothing to offer to help your sleep
Surrender to bed, silk scarves at the wrists. An apostle for malediction.
Yarn for the tapestry, woven in anger. Rage for the sake of it, stuck on repeat.
No heaven ever equal to your skin, but no Hell like the wrath that lay beneath.
Open eyed, I stare at the mirror and drive my teeth straight through my tongue
It’s so torpefying knowing that one day your life will be forgotten
You’ll be forgotten.
But if it hurt so much then why did you stay?
But if it hurt so much then why did you stay?
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Musically this feels more experimental for La Dispute reminding me of their Here, Hear releases. Very atmospheric and easy to lose your self in. Perfect for the next time you’re contemplating your existence. (Also found out the guitarist builds his own pedals and used them on this record; neato!) Mikey
The post-hardcore band’s latest is a reflection on time, memory, death, and grief—and is their dreamiest material to date. Bandcamp Album of the Day Mar 22, 2019