apology, empathy, blame, regret.
I know I promised not to call but I left so much unsaid, and you barely said a word at all but I knew exactly how you felt.
How fast did we decay? Cause I remember falling into love but never out again. It felt like one day I woke up and we weren’t there, we'd lay our bones in the same bed at night, but our love had disappeared.
Lonely is as lonely does, sink beneath the bed sheets, drowning in the thought of us, a bloodless vessel, empty. Toothless, I've been thinking of a way to let you know, hell is loving you in my sleep and waking up alone.
I guess I just couldn't bring myself to face the fact that maybe we were never what I wanted us to be. Maybe the love that we had made was not the beautiful home I always imagined that we had built. Because you were the light of my life, but no matter how brightly you shone the shadow you cast was never dark enough to cancel out the glare. Maybe I would have left sooner if I could have seen it then, maybe you were never there.
You never saw it as us, only ever you and me. You were the blood in my veins, you only came to watch me bleed. Our love set me on fire, and you stood and watched me burn. You told me once you couldn't love me, but I guess I'll never learn.
Lonely is as lonely does, I sink beneath the bed sheets, drowning in the thought of us, a bloodless vessel, empty. Toothless, I've been thinking of a way to let you know, hell is loving you in my sleep and waking up alone
released January 3, 2015
Music and lyrics by Casey
Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Jonny Redshaw at Bandit Studios
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