I barely notice as you pick up all the pieces.
How long have I been like this?
You must be tired, and I’m still trying to find the words to compensate for how vacant I’ve been today. Can’t believe that I would take you for granted. God I hate myself for letting you shoulder the weight for two. If it gets too much to hold, I won’t blame you if you go.
In every conversation you fight for my attention,
but I can feel the ennui that wears down your affection.
Does it help if I say I’m sorry?
I know you must be tired, but I’m scared because I no longer recognise myself.
So whose role have I been modeled after?
Mother’s warmth and father’s laughter,
yet somewhere in between with my anxieties and guilt.
Oh, what is the price of my reprieve
if not a life of misery?
Held hostage by a blade of shame,
with your name at the hilt.
But I still can’t find the words to compensate for how vacant I have been. Never meant to take you for granted, but I know that I did. God I hate myself for how you must think about me now. Know how much it hurts to grieve, but please don’t hate me if I leave.
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Musically this feels more experimental for La Dispute reminding me of their Here, Hear releases. Very atmospheric and easy to lose your self in. Perfect for the next time you’re contemplating your existence. (Also found out the guitarist builds his own pedals and used them on this record; neato!) Mikey
The post-hardcore band’s latest is a reflection on time, memory, death, and grief—and is their dreamiest material to date. Bandcamp Album of the Day Mar 22, 2019
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This album is overwhelmingly good. I've been making music for long enough and listened to too much music to not be impressed easily. This album is goosebumps from beginning till end. Completely different realm of existence of good. minerva