It’s a slow ride, slipping out of focus
A steady decline, every day’s the same
It aches until you tell yourself you can’t feel it anymore.
But it makes your shadow heavy as you drag it on the floor.
And you’re happy til you’re not, then you’re unsure if you ever were.
“You’re looking tired lately, is it getting hard to hold yourself together?”
The vespertine reluctance to stay awake and engage with anything that you say.
Are you keeping count of how often I dissociate when asked “is everything okay?”
When all I wanna know is how to disappear without leaving you to worry about me.
It hurts to say, but I’m getting tired of running away from the same pain.
Sorry if I’ve been avoiding the question.
Sorry if I’ve been avoiding the question.
What if you woke up to an empty bed and a note that said
“Is it disregard or discontent that lures the sparrow to its end?”
Sharp despair laid bare in the sunlight golden,
Fractured glass on an afternoon of grief unspoken.
Lately I haven’t been myself at all.
Sorry if I’ve been avoiding the question, I haven’t been myself at all.
Sorry if I’ve been avoiding the question, I haven’t been myself at all.
When all I wanna know is how to disappear without leaving you to worry about me.
It hurts to say, but I’m getting tired of running away from the same pain.
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Musically this feels more experimental for La Dispute reminding me of their Here, Hear releases. Very atmospheric and easy to lose your self in. Perfect for the next time you’re contemplating your existence. (Also found out the guitarist builds his own pedals and used them on this record; neato!) Mikey
The post-hardcore band’s latest is a reflection on time, memory, death, and grief—and is their dreamiest material to date. Bandcamp Album of the Day Mar 22, 2019
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This album is overwhelmingly good. I've been making music for long enough and listened to too much music to not be impressed easily. This album is goosebumps from beginning till end. Completely different realm of existence of good. minerva